Friday, May 8, 2009

Blame it on a-a-a-a-a-alcohol

I’m back from Florida and at this point two pounds heavier again. I say at this point because at my next weigh in (Monday) I will not be surprised if the numbers go up even more.

I tried to be good. I tried to make good choices but my lack of will power, in addition to alcohol consumption, and well, things got bad. Drinking lowers inhibitions. For some chicks that means turning into promiscuous ho bags—for me it means eating anything in sight.

I really need to get my ass in gear. This up and down is just a waste of time. There is really no point in suffering for a week only to throw it all out the window the next. I’ve been at this for about two months now and am only down 5 pounds and still fucking fat.

I think part of my problem is that on a daily basis I feel pretty good about myself. Yes, I look in the mirror but it just doesn’t seem that bad. But seeing a picture of myself snapped my ass back to reality quick. 3T just sent me some pics she took a few weeks ago. Not cute. Not cute at all. (And no way in HELL am I putting those on my internet dating profile.) And then I did this self torture thing where I compared the photos of today to those from last year…when I weighed 20 pounds less. Why did I let myself get back here?

Seriously, I’ve got to get it together.



parentingBYdummies said...

Ahhh..promiscuous ho bag does sound fun. But seriously, the pics were not that bad. I will advise that you use that really cute older pic just b/c the guy shouldn't be the only one lying on the internet;). Either way, I still think you are pretty hot and dudes do too. And, I'm not talking solely about those delivery truck guys, or those sanitation guys, or those yard guys who think every chick with feet is hot. Normal, everyday discriminating type guys do too. Just ask Will:)